Chaos that is my life. Why, is my life chaos? Because I make it that way. No, I don't chose to get up every morning and waste the day away and then make myself feel terrible for getting nothing done.... it just happens that way. It started with a bout of depression but it continued and eventually it throws me back into depression. So I've decided to do something about it. For months I have ranted and raved about how everyone else in my house is lazy and self centered and doesn't get anything done and how I am the only one who does ANYTHING! Well sometimes it really does feel like I'm the only one doing anything and since I'm not really doing much then nothing is getting done, BUT I'm not. The boys do get up and after some reminding they do get their chores done and, if I'm honest, those are sometimes the only chores that get done. I make sure we have food on the table and I do the laundry and dishes - when I feel like it- I mean, after all, I am really busy. Well here's my confession: I'm really not busy, I'm lazy, I'm self-centered and I'm tired of being that way. So this summer I have stepped up my game. I am working on getting on a better schedule and spending less time wasting my time and more time using my time wisely. God has blessed me with a great family and a nice house and I don't show Him how much I appreciate that. He also allows me to have time to waste so I figure I better start showing him how much I appreciate the blessings he's given me. I am in several really good review groups and I have even dropped the ball on those. To all my review hosts and all the sponsors they hook us up with I am truly SORRY for my slack. Please allow me to make it up to you all. I love doing reviews and my family loves helping me with them. So here's how my day use to go:
Get up around lunchtime (maybe) you know just whenever I felt like it. I mean I'm not really sleeping in here anyway, I am talking to the kids and monitoring what they are doing in between dozing and there is really nothing important to do anyway and I am tired.
Turn on the computer, take care of hygeine, get food and sit in front of computer. I'll only be here for a few minutes...............3 hours later, yep still there. I mean I have started some laundry and dumped some more on the couch and I've made sure the boys did their chores and are playing nicely. NO I can't play with them I'm busy. I mean Farmville, Country Life, Frontierville they are so important. If I don't harvest it will wilt, if I don't finish my task I won't get a new one. My friends are going to get past me in the games whatever will I do.
Oh it's time for dinner, ok I guess I 'll make something. Cook, eat, get back on game. I mean now my friends on here for me to chat with and I haven't talked to her in at least an hour. She hasn't been on the computer all day so I need to get on there with her. Yes, I'm coming to put you to bed. Boys bedtime routine but sorry we didn't have time to read tonight I was just to busy.
Now goodnight to everyone it is FINALLY MY time, so guess where I go. Yep, back to the computer and back to the games and occassionally I watch a show online while I fold the clothes or file the paperwork but that is only if I really just can't stand it anymore.
Now, as all of you read that in shock and think how can anyone waste their days like that....don't be so surprised it happens more than you know all over this country. It may not be the computer, but it is something. The television, that new novel, the hobby of scrapbooking, hiking, biking, bug collecting, bird watching, ________________. We all do it. You may say yes but I'm hiking and that is exercise. True but is it keeping you from doing the important things. From appreciating the important people. If you are one of those rare people who balance their time right then congratulations, tell us how to do it. But most of us don't. And those with children can be worse because they justify running in 50 directions just because their kids are in this or that club. If you don't have any family time other than the 5 minutes in the car to or from somewhere there is something wrong. So many of us ask "Why don't my kids mind me? Why don't they respect me?" Well it's because we don't give them the time to. We don't consistently expect them to. How many of you know that your child LOVES the activity(s) you have them in. Are they allowed to say they don't like something and they want to stop doing it. How often do you make them go to ball practice or dance class but allow them to skip church, or bible camp, or the youth activity on Saturday because you're just to busy and need the break. Our priorities are not right and I for one am working on that. I can only change my habbits and hopefully change the direction of my family some, but what about you? Does your family need change? How long have you been hiding the truth about how busy you really are? Can you change? Do you want to? I do, but it's hard. I have years of laziness and indifference to change and that is not easy. I get discouraged because I'm trying so hard but don't immediately see the fruits of that labor.
The thing is I know that God is not a God of chaos. I've brought this to myself and only I can decide to change it. God will help me. He is faithful. And with Him my life will no longer be chaos. Please pray with me as I continue to make these changes and share your story too. We can encourage each other.
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